Sunday, May 22, 2016


  I received a message from one of the reader of my blog, that liked one of my old blog entry on Mysticism in MAHABHARATA. So I was thinking about the mysticism not only in Hinduism , but also in Christianity.On the surface  many things that are written or said, appear to be open for interpretation or misinterpretation. The story of Adam and Eve.The question that I have is how valid is the statement that we are all sinner as we are born to Adam and Eve . This off course comes from the people who DO NOT believe in reincarnation.So Where do I come from and what sin did I commit that I am paying for it ? I do have explanation . But I will write about it latter. But today I thought about writing about the THE FATHER , THE SON AND THE HOLY GHOST in CHRISTIANITY and the same thing in HINDUISM . You can tell me how wrong or correct I am after reading this blog.
    In Christianity they always talk about the Trinity . It is also said that The Jesus Christ was the SON and he will save us. But no one talks much about the origin of the universe. So the FATHER is the SAT, The SON is the TAT and the Holy Ghost is the AUM. The SAT means the Truth, the Unchangeable, the ever lasting. When one refers to something as REAL , it does not mean that in our conventional way . The computer that I am using is real to us and is not imagination . But it changes every second , even though we can not recognize it at that time.(We can see it very easily if we check it in a year or two. )So the SAT means one that does not change and from this SAT everything originated.  Thia is why it is the FATHER . The SON is the thing that comes out of the FATHER. But to start the universe we need to have ENERGY and the Matter. So the UNIVERSAL CONSCIOUSNESS or the SON which pervades everything in this universe is the TAT--THAT.The first word or the creative vibration. This is AUM or the HOLY GHOST. The matter is inert and has on spirit or energy and that comes from the SON or TAT The union between the SPRITE and the Matter leads to the beginning of the universe. The AUM is mentioned in the Bible as the 'In the beginning was the word and word was with the GOD 'So in Hinduism we talk about the first sound is AUM . The AMEN of Romans , Greeks, Egyptians, Jews and Christians the AMIN of Muslims , all are same as AUM .
    So The SUPREM GOD does not move and does not change and is the ulimate reality and is the origin of the universe is the FATHER OR THE SAT. The SON is the all pevading consciuosness or the Sprit or the energy or the TAT without which inert mattaer can not DO anything ,is the TAT. And lastly the HOLY GHOST is the AUM or the first sound or the matter or the mother nature.    

Tuesday, May 17, 2016


      I was reading a book which was suggested to me by several people . The name of the book is WHEN THE BREATH BECOMES AIR .' This was written by Paul Kalanithi . When I went to library to check it , I realized that it was quite popular book . There were 50 plus people ahead of me . This is a story of a neurosurgeon who was diagnosed with metastatic lung cancer at age 36 and died of it. The book it written by him and published by his wife after he died . Couple of points that I want to make is that 1 it is quite depressing book especially towards the end , and I did expect it . Even though I see this every day I was not very happy with the end even though I knew the end . Secondly I felt that too many physicians FEEL that working HARD and neglecting family is OK. I am not surgeon ,but I have heard that in all the surgical branches there is hard work and rude behavior and it is carried from residency and then in practise . (I want to make it very clear that Dr Kalanithi was not rude )But why is it OK to work 16 hrs?(In my residency time I did do 34 hrs straight too ).This may be the cause of stress and suicide. But the reason I started this blog was to tell you about my patient.
       So I was consulted on this 35 years old female who was having some shortness of the breath and question of pneumonia . When I talked to the patient and her family , I realized that I was dealing with a sad story.She never smoked and did not drink alcohol and about 20 months ago she was diagnosed to have a stomach cancer . By the time it was diagnosed , it was inoperable. So she was given chemotherapy and she did OK , She was in 'remission '. But then as many times happens , she had recurrence . She was given radiation and chemo and continued to struggle The cancer had gone to bones and brain and lungs. She was short of breath and needed oxygen . Due to the spread of the cancer to boned , she was needing blood transfusion every other day . I reviewed her chest X-ray and the Ct SCAN AND FELT THAT THE CANCER WAS NOT ONLY IN LUNGS , BUT WAS BLOCKING THE LYMPH DRAINAGE . This was making lungs 'stiff' .The lungs  which are normally like dry sponge , are now filled with water -or in this case due to cancer and these stiff lungs needed much more energy to open or expand them and that resulted in shortness of the breath . This fluid in lungs also caused the oxygen transfer to be poor and needing oxygen .So there was not much I could do . Just like in case of Dr Kalanithi , sometimes we can not offer anything but prayers .
      Even though I believe in reincarnation and the Law of Karma , I am not sure how I can explain this or accept it I still call it BAD LUCK !!!

Sunday, May 8, 2016


   I have always wondered about the speech or the language.  when different people speak English they speak in different way or have different accent. I think that the accent is based on the person's mother tongue.. (Is it called mother tongue as the father does not get a chance to speak?)So when a Hispanic speaks English it is different that when I Frenchman speaks. I for that matter can distinguish different accents of people from India . This is how the CHINAYA SUZUKI thought about the music. He felt that the music was a language and as we don't have to teach a child a language or it's peculiar accent , we don't have to teach a child a music if he or she can hear it frequently. But I am not talking about this part of the language , or the speech . I am talking about the origin of speech .
    The other day I saw this patient with respiratory failure . She had been a smoker and had rheumatoid arthritis . She came to hospital with shortness of the breath and then needed significant oxygen .When I saw her in ER , she was mildly short of breath and was talking OK. She may have had pneumonia , but when I saw her old X-ray , I knew that she had fibrosis , or scar tissue in lungs , probably from her rheumatoid arthritis. So I knew that we are going to have some tough time in weaning her oxygen . But she did OK , did get little better. But then the hospital doctor called me one morning telling me that she was confused and he did not have idea as to the reason for it . So when I saw her and examined her I was surprised . She was NOT CONFUSED ,but had Expressive Aphasia. SHE COULD NOT EXPRESS . She could move her all extremities. But when I showed her a pen , she could not name it and was saying yes to every question. So I knew that she most likely had stroke . I ordered a CT scan of the brain and asked a neurologist to look at her . CT scan of the brain showed abnormal area in the frontal lobe . The neurologist had no specific diagnosis.
     The speech is formed as a result of coordination of various areas in the brain. Broka's area and the Wernikoff's area are the 2 known area and the frontal lobe stroke most likely caused the aphasia .When we see something, we know what it is and the word is formed . When we listen to a sound we know what it means and when we touch , we know what we feel .
  For those who are interested in Hindu Religion , there are 4 different speeches , They are called PARA. PASHYNTI MADHYAMA AND VIKHARI. The last one is spoken speech . May some day I will try to explain what the other 3 mean .